'Sup y'all! TGIF and it's a public holiday here in Nigeria :)
Monday & Tuesday marks the end of Ramadan and the celebration of Edi-el-Fitri.
It gets even better - no work for me on Wednesdays - CD days, sooo it's a 5 day weekend for me - Yipppppppeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!
Not much planned, but who cares. No driving to work. No sitting in front of a pc for hours. No staring at excel spreadsheets. No reports to generate, analyze and send. Ahhh... that's all that matters right now.
...Side thought:
During my breakfast break today, one of the cleaners and I got talking. He was curious as to how I stay fit (don't know either, 'cause Lord knows I love food). Anyhoo, apparently yday when I came in for lunch, his friend said "ah look at MJs sister". Of course, my head started swelling, as I thought he was referring to Janet but he's like "no o, u have a nice statue, very straight legs and you look very fit. You have slim statue like MJ" I mean I don't mean to tut my own horns but *beep*beep LOL
So, he went on and on about how it's rare to see slim girls with stratight legs, and how sometimes there's always sthng wrong, like 'K-leg' and I was flattered, but quickly wrapped up the conversation when he started talking about my legs. Yeah, flattery is nice, but the sender's also important (no prejudice here).
Moving on, I started watching CNN while eating my breakfast -it's fashion week somewhere in NYC. I stared at all the models getting glammed up and it got me thinking...
Should I have gotten into modeling? I mean here I am going on and on, jubilating about the holiday like coming to work is torture. I obviously don't love my job (i like it though), but I keep feeling I could and should be doing more with my life. Something exciting (but also financially rewarding - can't be broke). Is it too late? I mean i'm just 23 (crap! 24 in 3 months!) but where do I start??
Told my parents about modeling and they seemed cool with it. Their response "ah, when all those people kept calling you to come and model, you were saying no. ur done with school, why not". My response "Thanks mom, u didn't have to remind me about opportunities i let go *rolls eyes*" ...like they would have supported me, when all i heard was "study, study, make all A's"
Thing is, it's difficult to start stuff in this country. I mean where do I go? who do I talk to? where do I meet designers who'll take me seriously?? if i was in VA, i'd prolly take up classes. It'd be easy to find the info - online of course. But here, it's difficult. So, I keep to my 8-6.
It doesn't even have to be modeling, just something more exciting than a regular office job.
Is this just a phase? Don't think so, 'casue i've always felt this way. But, I need to act fast as they say "if your dreams determine your future, why not go to sleep now". I don't want to sleep! I want to pursue my dreams! But how??
Thoughts? Ideas?
... and I just remembered this great bible verse "..be still, and know that I am God' (Psalm 46:10)
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